A few years ago, if you would have asked me what my plans were for this day, I would have told you I was going to party like a rock star and then put a bullet in my brain. Not literally, but that is how I felt about meeting this "milestone". I was dreading it. I just thought for sure, my life would be over. What would there be to look forward to? Nothing, just getting older and older.
Fortunately, my outlook has changed drastically in the last year. Yes, I am still not thrilled to be 20-10, but it is definitely a lot easier to swallow. Obviously, you know where this is going, since I can not ever seem to shut up about it. It may help if you stick a fork in your eye, so the pain of reading this is alleviated a little. :o) Having a child has definitely made me look at things a lot differently. It has made me feel like I actually have a purpose in life. I was an acting Mom before, but now I actually get to be Mom. I have been lucky enough to be given the love of my life, who goes by the name Colter.
I love my stepson to pieces and cannot imagine my life without him. I can be very blunt about things, because I feel honesty is best. I would be lying if I said there is no difference in being a stepparent and being a parent. Tanner would also be lying if he said there was no difference between his mother and I. His love for his mother, is as it should be. She can do no wrong in his eyes. He loves her unconditionally, no matter what she pulls. It may irritate me, but it has also taught me a good lesson. As much as I would like to be the perfect mom, my son will still love me even if I am not. No matter what, Tanner and I will always have a special bond, it is just a different kind.
Instead of partying like a rock star tonight, I am going out for supper with my kids, my brother and his family. Unfortunately, Al has to work. It is not quit what I imagined years ago, but I will still enjoy it. I really don't care if I get any gifts. Of course, it is nice to receive one, but what really makes my birthday special is when people remember it. Paula and I usually try to get together ever year for both of our birthdays. There have been times that we could not. But over all the years, she has never once not called me to wish me a happy birthday. I certainly hope I have never forgot one of hers. My brother & sister-n-law, my parents, and my mother-n-law never forget either. Thanks to all of you who remember me and make my day special!!
I also have to thank Kerrie. Thank you Kerrie! I came into work today and she had decorated the office. That certainly started my day off with a huge smile. Someone also bought a cake, all though I am not 100% sure who yet. I even had a trio of guys come and sing happy birthday. That was a hoot. Have I ever mentioned that I work with the greatest bunch of people ever! I have met some very amazing people here. It is nice to know that there are still people out there with a heart and that you are not just another number on the time clock.
I hope ya'll are as lucky as I feel today! Have a great weekend everybody!
Fortunately, my outlook has changed drastically in the last year. Yes, I am still not thrilled to be 20-10, but it is definitely a lot easier to swallow. Obviously, you know where this is going, since I can not ever seem to shut up about it. It may help if you stick a fork in your eye, so the pain of reading this is alleviated a little. :o) Having a child has definitely made me look at things a lot differently. It has made me feel like I actually have a purpose in life. I was an acting Mom before, but now I actually get to be Mom. I have been lucky enough to be given the love of my life, who goes by the name Colter.
I love my stepson to pieces and cannot imagine my life without him. I can be very blunt about things, because I feel honesty is best. I would be lying if I said there is no difference in being a stepparent and being a parent. Tanner would also be lying if he said there was no difference between his mother and I. His love for his mother, is as it should be. She can do no wrong in his eyes. He loves her unconditionally, no matter what she pulls. It may irritate me, but it has also taught me a good lesson. As much as I would like to be the perfect mom, my son will still love me even if I am not. No matter what, Tanner and I will always have a special bond, it is just a different kind.
Instead of partying like a rock star tonight, I am going out for supper with my kids, my brother and his family. Unfortunately, Al has to work. It is not quit what I imagined years ago, but I will still enjoy it. I really don't care if I get any gifts. Of course, it is nice to receive one, but what really makes my birthday special is when people remember it. Paula and I usually try to get together ever year for both of our birthdays. There have been times that we could not. But over all the years, she has never once not called me to wish me a happy birthday. I certainly hope I have never forgot one of hers. My brother & sister-n-law, my parents, and my mother-n-law never forget either. Thanks to all of you who remember me and make my day special!!
I also have to thank Kerrie. Thank you Kerrie! I came into work today and she had decorated the office. That certainly started my day off with a huge smile. Someone also bought a cake, all though I am not 100% sure who yet. I even had a trio of guys come and sing happy birthday. That was a hoot. Have I ever mentioned that I work with the greatest bunch of people ever! I have met some very amazing people here. It is nice to know that there are still people out there with a heart and that you are not just another number on the time clock.
I hope ya'll are as lucky as I feel today! Have a great weekend everybody!
5 comments:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Hope it's a great one!!
Happy Birthday Miah!! I hope it is a good one!
Isn't motherhood the BEST!! No matter how much your kids challenge your authority there is nothing better than when a child comes up says "I love you mommy!"
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIAH!!!
You did it with no casualties (so far)! Who would have thunk. I hope you have a great day, and that no gray hairs sprout. Love ya!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIAH! I sure hope you have a great day and a great dinner with your family!!
COOL CAKE!!! Hmmmm....
I feel very lucky to be able to call you a friend. You are such a great person.
Happy Birthday!!!
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